Just came back from tuition… so tired. It’s a boring day. I’m feeling bit moody!! Don’t know what wrong with me recently, just a bit weird. It’s it something’s wrong with me or it’s just the environment or stress that I’m facing make me like this. I’m not too sure. I’m making everyone around me moody too, especially my darling. Feel so sorry for making everyone moody. Don’t really mean it. But it’s just hard for me to control myself. I wouldn’t realise I have said something wrong.
Came online, saw the photos which is submitted by Li Shia to me which she took it on last Friday. I was smiling so happily in the photo. But am I really happy? I’m not really sure…Realise I’m moody almost everyday ever since school started. Maybe I’m just too busy, stress over my work and the hectic schedule.
I’m having choir almost everyday. Push all my tuition to weekends so that I could attend choir. But yet, we still get scolding if we leave early for a day. What about those who skip so many times. How come only we’re always the ones whom they blame. We’ve give our best to choir. I’m not the quality to sing at all. Didn’t want to join choir at first, force to go for the choir audition. Got selected, attend the first meeting although didn’t really like it. Wanted to tell them I want to quit, but I pity the choir team, there’s only a number of people singing for the whole choir team if I quit. They don’t have enough members. So i attend the second meeting, third and so on… Started to like choir a lil now. But still feel very tired attending the practice everyday. Wanted to quit choir again. But really ‘mm se tak’ when I attend the next meeting. Continued to attend the next meeting, continue to sing as usual. The competition is on this coming Thusday. This will be our 5th year if we win. We’ll be representing KL if we’re the champion. But do I really wish to win?If we win. I’ll continue to have practice; if we lose, that’s the end of choir practice and we could be back to the normal schedule.I’m not too sure what I want. Could I be in the middle of this? I didn’t want to lose, but I don’t really feel like having choir practice anymore. Awww~~what I really want???
