Fr1skY~FaY

1st of all, i wud wanan talk bout yest. i have so much to talk 2day. not really in the mood now. mayb shud only update ltr…

yesterday, i have ate a lot for my dinner. my aunt’s had a open hse yesterday. the food there is juz so nice. i can’t resist to eat them. all of them r nice. i think i put on weight again. sob~ suddenly realise that it’s gonna b january soon. tat means school’s gonna start soon. omg!! i haven’t buy my uniform yet. hope i still could wear all my skirt, coz i’ve really put on some weight during this long but boring holiday which lead to extremely extra food intake. I haven’t really study much during this holiday. come n think bout it, i still have some incomplete homework. sob~ think i better hurry n do them now. or not, i’ll really b suffering for the next 2 weeks. juz now say wanna start to study n do homework. and still i haven’t upkeep my room. but i really feel like blogging so much 2day. have so much to write. think i can compose up to 10 post 2day. i could actually post it all in 1. but i don’t feel like doing like tat. all different title marr…think this i’m gonna leave it to b black, don’t know what colour i want to put d. think he’s angry again. did somethg wrong yesterday i guess. got few msg this morn, aft tat then no rep d. dunno wat’s wrong lerrr… till now also he din rep eh. Mum’ll b going to Hong Kong 2mrw. I’ll need to handle all her stuff when she’s in HK. Wouldn’t say no coz she haven’t been travelling for few yrs d. pity her actually. have been bz wit work for so long w/o having rest. so this time i have to help her, i’ve no choice act. she left her phone wit me, to handle all her customer. hope i won’t make any mistake for this few days. she didn’t extend her flight coz she’s worry. she don’t really have time to buy her stuff there but wudn’t wanna spend more time there coz she’s afraid we can’t handle her stuff.

will b having tuition 2mrw. need to send mum to my aunt’s hse very early too, coz they need to go to the airport earlier. y the plane depart so early huh?? made all of them sacrifice their bedtime. guess mum will definately sleep in the plane. hopefully everythg will b fine and she’ll b safely home. although she alwiz say she hope to die in a plane crash so tat she wun need to b heartache seeing all of us, but i noe she really wun wanan leave this world so early. she loves us very much. wudn’t wanna leave us alone here.

k, i really have to go this time. wey n mum’s calling me for help. ltr wanna watch tv. no ppl fight for the tv wit me, better watch the tv… haha!!

dark…dark…dark…

I got DARKER again…. sob~~

attended swimming class for sometime, i got so much darker now. worst of all, there is a swimming suit mark on my back n all. anythg which is not covered by my swimming suit appeared to b much darker than those which r covered. guess my original skin colour is suppose to b like those which r covered.

I only made myself fair after so much effort…few yrs time to b fair again. not really few yrs, i only took bout a yr i think. remember i was very dark since primary till form 2. when i left kjg to kl for studies, i became fairer day by day. but now, all my effort r ruin…by swimming classes.

I wanted to quit swimming class once i’ve learnt the butterfly stroke. have skipped swimming class for a week. i’m not too sure how much time do i need to learn this butterfly. it’s so tiring, the most tiring stroke ever. But the more i swim, the more i’m falling in love with swimming…. what shud i do? want to b fair, i need to quit swimming ; want to continue swimming class, i’ll need to sacrifice to b dark…

I really don’t want to b so dark eh. I don’t wanna have b so dark eh…he’s so fair eh. it wud look very contrast whenever i stand beside him. made me sad whenever i think bout his fairness. sob~~

my life will nv b lack of boredom i guess. i’ve alwiz been complaining tat i’m bored.

there’s a misconception of having a bf. one’s time wud b fully occupied by their loved ones. but y mine isn’t? i’m so bored eh…

I have ntg to do at home. still in my sleeping dress, blogging n writing funny testi..haha! ltr only have to help mum up. think i’ll have to bathe soon.

shud’ve sneak out fr home to go genting wit all of them. i’m so bored eh. bet their enjoying so much there. sob~

for him again…alwiz been doing this n that coz of him. this time also like tat, at 1st really nv tot of doing it. but still did it, juz for him. argh! sometimes really dunno wat am i doing lar. can’t believe tat i actually wud promise him bout it. nvm la, it’s over. guess it wun really harm me. juz tat i lost my principles of life. This will b the last, I hope…

Now, waiting for my cousin to come n fetch me. shudn’t have promise her for shopping too. didn’t had enuf sleep coz i slept at 5.30 lst nite. She called me and told me tat she’ll only b coming at 1.30 or 2. shudn’t wake up so early larr…

I’m complaining again. And start to regret wat have i done again. Er, not really regret la, juz tat sometimes think back, then wonder y i actually did tat. haha!!

murderer… i now declare myself as murderer. i’m like gonna murder myself, torturing myself, swim for bout 40 laps in the pool w/o resting. phew! I’m really crazy… it’s not the long lap but this is the 1st time i’m doing this, can’t believe that i could do that. my hands n legs r like gonna break soon.

I’m gonna kill my family wit my temper too. I lost my temper nearly to everyone in my house 2day. scolded shum, for no reason, juz coz i’m irritated and i yelled at him. I was mad at my bro, used the phone for more than 500 in two months, nearly break my history. yet, still unwilling to pay the phone bill. asking me to pay it. I refuse to queue in tat super long queue at the post office. mum say let them disconnect the phone line only. I don’t mind, i don’t use the phone much. after all, all of us have our own handphone. this world is juz convenient coz of the advancement of technology. I might only use it twice a yr, coz it’s much cheaper to make local phone calls wit hse phone service. but there r plenty of promotions network are making, they r competeting among each other while the ones who r the most beneficial wud b us, consumer. it’s almost the same price wit the calls u made from handphone to handphone. so, y do u really need a house phone for.

juz realise tat my finger nails r broken. tot wanna leave it bit longer so tat i cud have nice finger nails wen i attend my cousin’s wedding next next week. but now, it’s all broken, forced to cut it real short now. hopefully it’ll grow as fast as possible.

my hair grown so much longer again. i’ve only cut it for less than a month, and now it’s like getting out of shape d. How come my hair grow so fast huh? mum say coz i wash it everyday, i dun think tat’s the factor lar. some ppl alwiz want their hair to grow faster, while i do not want them to grow so fast. it’s not really nice to have hair to grow so fast actually. then u wud have to cut it or at least trim it in a very short period. the only advantage is i could change my hairstyle in very fast. since i’m a person who get bored of somethg easily, this shud benefit me. as i can cut my hair often

Shum say he wanna continue his swimming class. I thought I wanna switch it to the class which is held at night, so that i won’t get dark so easy. I’m really so dark already, wud really wanna lock myself at home all the time so tat i wud b fair. but i really enjoy swimming, that’s a very good exercise. I wouldn’t do any exercise if i alwiz stay at home only. Now, i still left bit more of the butterfly. juz coz my instructor haven’t teach me how to move my hands. argh! he say i’m not good at it, tat’s y he din wanan teach me 1st. i really wanna learn asap larr.. so tat i wun need to attend swimming class so often. now need to go swimming wit shum, he wud surely wanna swim at the afternoon section. wat shud i do to skip the afternoon section. i shud juz make him attend the class alone. since he can swim d, dunno y he alwiz need my company only. as if ppl wud kill him if i’m not there.

Just approved li yen’s testimonial. she said i had a sexy voice. omg! I can’t believe tat she actually say that. She’s the 2nd person saying that. feel like laughing at myself so much after hearing that. Every guy wud die for? so far I haven’t had any guy who have die for me coz of my voice. mayb nxt time i shud juz interviewed those guys. haha! Er, think i’ve only heard a lot of comment bout my loud voice, ppl alwiz complain bout my voice. it’s juz too loud, it’s like i could give a speech in a hall w/o using mic. haha! but now i’m trying to control my volume la, really sounds so irritating if i’m talking so loud. but i find tat my voice wud change once i talk softer. I can’t stand tat voice. that voice is juz like i’m gonna seduce the guys. I dunno y la, mum also said tat. Mum tease me saying tat i shud juz attend some course or somethg to train my voice. r there such classes?? she’s juz jk i guess…

I’m not in the mood recently. really felt like juz screaming so loudly…. feel so stressed eh. but i’m afraid tat i wud disturb ppl if i scream eh. think the glass wud really break if i scream so loud I wud really wanna run to an empty space n scream. that wud surely release my stress. aww~~ now i tot of my chocclate, totally forgot bout it. wud surely feel much better after eating it. believe it or not, it really help to release stress eh. one wud feel much relax aft eating it. but the side effect is one wud surely gain weight if they indulge in chocs. I’ve put on a lot of weight la, shudn’t eat so much of chocs. recently eat much lesser, stress i think. tat’s y lost bit of weight. tummy also got smaller d think swimming’s better to release stress. got 2 benefit, can exercise for healthy purpose and also to lose some weight. another 1 is i can release stress. haha! I’m really so in love wit swimming now. but wud get dark if i swim, tat’s the sacrification lor. shoulders wud b bit broader too, the arms also will b bit bigger. look bit weird on me. mayb i’m small size gua. my arms got so much flesh d. last time got bit of flesh only, can touch bones, now like so fat d. 

think i better bathe n sleep for a while. Or mayb at least rest for a while. Gonna sleep earlier 2nite. my dark circles got worse again. I slept at 4.30 yesterday. The day before that was worse, slept at 12.30 and woke up at 4. then slept back at 6, woke up at 10.30 coz have an appointment wit Ai Ling n Debbie. Was so sleepy yesterday eh. But really enjoyed la, thanx gurls.

yellow…yellow…yellow…yellowish…

mango…mango…mango…

yellowish MANGO

my yellowish bag, yellow v-neck shirt…

made me been called a mango..

went in to MANGO (MNG)

I’m the real mango now…

p/s : feel like eating mango now, and also a cup of mango juice pls