happy birthday my lovely brother….
let me think wat i want to write?
yest went out wit AL, Deb, SL n also How. 1st time fetching all of them. not really fetching them fr their hse though. went to SP to fetch AL coz i need to take somethg for pig from some1 i dunnno. forgot tat i act need to fetch shum fr swimming. nearly wanna go out w/o fetching him. mum reminded me. so went out to fetch him. reach there early, i could see him juz came up fr the pool, cooling himself down. he went to the bathroom to bathe, took him quite long. argh!! sud feel tat i shud bathe b4 i go out. went back, had a quick shower n went out. drove to SP, hurriedly, i sped at thee highway 
reach AL’s hse. then called the guy whom i need to meet to get the stuffs. i dun wish to talk bout the whole stories coz i’ve been telling it for few times. kinda sick of it. went to the store. bought boxes in Living Cabin n got the stuffs fr the guy. put everythg in my car n start off my journey to LM, where we planned to have tea.
reached there in bout 15min. it wasn’t too far fr SP. it was terribly jammed. forgot tat there’ll b having a night market on fri. stucked in the jam for bout 10min n didn’t manage to get a parking. called SL n he told me he juz reached home, saying tat he mite not b coming d. called deb, ask her where she is. she said she’s bout to reach. ask her to wait for me at Makro coz i tot of going to fetch SL. dunno y have this thought in my mind tat time. mayb coz he alwiz come n fetch me whenever we’re going out, no matter where we go. he’s really like my part-time driver. oops, sorry, dun mean tat. but really wanna thank him a lot. ok…cont… AL called how. he’s bout to reach LM. so we waited for him at S1. i’m forced to wait him at the opposite road coz i couldn’t turn back d. if wanan turn back den gotta stuck in the jam again. waited him for quite long, talked to AL in the car, wit the engine off. i juz can’t imagine tat. how could i stand tat heat. but AL’s fine wit it, not too long then ok lor. luckily no mosquitoes, or i’ll die 
went to Makro wen how came. feel sorry for keeping deb waiting. i bet she’ve waited for so long. we told SL tat we’re going to fetch him, as well as Deb. told deb to take a ride on my car coz we dun need to drive so many car. went to pump petrol as it’s bout to b emptied. i’m juz too worried act. only filled half the tank, a lil bit more. then set off to SL’s hse aft i went to the bank., i’m afraid tat i wun have enuf money ltr.
it’s quite late tat time. went to SL’s hse, taking those dark routes. was really scared to take such roads. reached SL’s hse n we headed to CD. took the worst routes ever. the road was quiet. it was dark. it’s surrounded by empty lands full of wild grass. OMG!! i juz wanna drive faster n get out of tat place asap. tat’s my thought wen i’m driving although we’re all talking in the car.
manage to reach tat place at bout 11.15, if i’m not mistaken. had our light food n drink n we chat, bout everythg, more bout our school. have lots to talk bout. the clubs n also the school guard. talking bout tat, i was nearly hit by the guard. he wanted to hit me wit tat stick.Gosh! I’ve gone thru it, w/o any fear. how could i act do tat? aft the incident only i’m bit scared… thinking tat he might juz hit me n beaten me to death tat time. but dunno y i’m juz not worried at all, not bout the single thg. anyway, i’m safe fr tat d. but still gotta becareful as i might not noe wat will he do to me. he might do soemthg to me in the future, revenge. maid keep asking me to walk in a group, dun b alone if necessary. she said he might juz rape me. mayb it’s coz of the thg all my friends n family said, now bit afraid of wat might happen. sometimes thgs really happen this way.
ok…cont wit yest. send every1 home exp deb n AL coz deb’s gonna drive al home. went home at bout 1.15. i drove very fast coz i’m not used to b driving on the road so late. the road is so empty n the surrounding is dark, although the road have lights which can lead me back home. called him once i’ve reach home. i dunno y i called him. told myself tat i dun need to tell him even i’m coming back late. but at lst called him, juz to report tat i came back late. the call only lst for bout 2min. he’s gaming tat time, didn’t wanan disturb him. plus my credit wun allow me to talk for long. act purp dun wanna reload my phone, so tat i wun b calling him. i guess i’m trying to make myself to b more independent. disturbing him all the time dun benefit me at all. sometimes i dunno y i called him too. miss him i think. or mayb i’m juz used to b talking to him everyday wen he’s in M’sia. Argh!! sometimes felt tat i’m neglected. but ltr try to convince myself tat it’s act allowing me to spend more time wit my studies. less msg n phone calls now. we’re worse than the time we’re still frens. mayb he’s busy wit his routine n work. i do not know. haven’t been really talking to him since my anniversary, we didn’t talk much on our anniversary too. it was only few days ago but it seems like it’s been a very long time. lst time used to b telling him lots of thgs, everyday. now i’m like missing out a lot, n he’s missing out more. coz he rarely tell me his thgs, fr the day we know each other. i’m the only 1 who’s telling every single thg tat had happen. sometimes bit too detail. but tat’s juz me, i’ll juz talk a lot. feel like talking then talk lor, no matter u’re interested or not. feeel comfortable then i’ll talk.
awww~~ dun wanan talk so much bout him larr.. starting to miss him again. feel like talking to him again. STOP… i’m gonna do my work, bathe n gotta send my bro out d.
oh ya, it’s wey’s bd 2day. haven’t wish him happy bd also. mayb wen he comes back ltr. wanted to go to the QuickSilver revo at Sunway act. but i need to send bro to tuition. wun have time d larr at night mayb wanna go to watch the band comp. haven’t confirm wit them yet. can’t drive there as it’s diff to get parking but i didn’t wanan take LRT too. it’ll def b very crowded.
