Fr1skY~FaY

gosh…shum juz touch my lovely whitey a.k.a snow ball wit his fishy hands. he juz came back from fishing n he din even wash his hands b4 he touch it. awww~~ it stinks now, at the stomach place. i’m def gonna send it to laundry. i juz cant stand their behaviour. scolded them although i’m playing maple.. stupid, felt very frust for not able to get over tat stupid place d. still wanna touch my whitey. warn them so many times d. told them not to bring it down from my room too. scolded them badly… luek who brought it down also got scolding… yest shum took it down, 2day’s luek’s turn. tat time shum touch it n i found some rice d i’m very angry. now still wanan make me angry… awwww~~ juz hate getting angry…stomach’s making noise- hungry… and i juz cant seem to concentrate on wat i’m writing now. ltr going out…

errr…think bout it, very long din call or msg him d. the lst time was the msg delivered wrongly thgy. oops…really so embarrassing eh. shudn’t send tat msg wrongly to him. wonder wat’s his reaction wen he read tat. if he still likes me then will feel sorry i guess…if not then will feel like i purp wanna send tat msg to get his attention. gosh!! really dunno how to talk to him now. guess we wun even end up being frens again. shudn’t couple wit him if i noe we’re gonna break in the end. i not only lost a bf in this relationship, i lost my beloved kau foo who sayang me a lot, a fren whom i noe for 7 yrs and a very very close n good fren… how wud i not to b sad?? it’s ok la, it’s over. dunno how we’ll end up at the end, juz hope it wun b tat bad la. at least b frens lorrr…if not i’ll blame myself for choosing the wrong path on 16.04.2005. tat’s a lesson…shudn’t make decision so quickly…shud think prop..nv mix up ur feelings…too much to talk larrr…

think i better stop here. i’m really very hungry…still very angry…my emotion is not stable yet….

at last i could update my blog…juz now wanna save my page den error, stupid frenster. load pictures only also jam…aww~~

k, back to my topic…" an apple a day, keeps the doctor away" i’ve alwiz use this phrase, whenever i wanna tease him. now really keeps my beloved doctor away d, left me alone now my frens say i fall sick easily now, haha!! coz of losing a doc bf now?? haha!! juz a way to tease me larrr… but i really dun feel so well this morning marr…norm also i wun feel cold in class, fan only eh. so i guess i muz really eat more apples to keep myself healthy now. no1’s there to take care of me now, although all this while also he dun. only tat time i have a person to manja wit it’s ok, it’s time to b independent again. i guess i enjoy my single life a lot. really…i can b dependent and also independent, although i dunno y everybody seems to worry a lot bout me. i wanna grow up eh, dun wanna b a small kid anymore…this is my target of the yr… ^_^

errr..juz fin exam…dun wish to talk bout the paper. been spending quite a lot of time studying these few days. although rest some of the time for shopping la haha, went to supermarket wit mum n maid tat day n came out wit nearly RM900 stuffs. juz groceries eh…haha!! how great shoppers r we. hehe…we went 3 times la, on the same day, horrible huh?? err..back to exam…i really put some effort in this test, but still i dun think i’ll do well. my memory is bad, dun really rem the thgs i studied. yest was the worst, tot of him at the wrong time, made me cant study…:(

wat else i wanna say?? i forgot…forgetful…nvm la, holz is coming, 2 more days to sch then i’ll b off for 2 weeks. plus my bd is coming… haha!! i’m announcing to the whole world again. haha!! al, u’re not the only 1, but rem, we’re better than deb coz it’s not even 2 weeks b4 our bd..she reminded us a mth ahead rem?? haha!!

k, load some photos while i’m studying… show off my hardworking face bit

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* can u see tat seal over there?? my beloved plush is studying wit me all the time. i’m really working for my studies this time *

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*haha, another picture of mine, eve of taking business paper. struggling to get my own short notes in order to remember the keywords.

studying is boring.. tat’s y i took some of my photos….haha!! but this is the 1st time i expose my photos like this…rarely can see my hardworking face rite?? grab this chance then…hehe!! i wasn’t pretending, really studying, i set the timer only…then only can take photos naturally marr..i noe i dun really look like i’m studying, but believe me for once la ya

k la, late d, need to sleep d. yawn~ love ya everyone….

it’s my fren’s bd 2day..used to b 1 of our close fren, p2k’s close fren. but coz of lots of problem, we weren’t tat close anymore and then we formed p2k..history larrr…

2day also suppose to b my 13th mth anniversary. kinda sad tat i act broke off 3 days b4 my 13th mth anniversary. mayb the 1yr anniversary is more imp but the 1 yr anniversary dun leave any memory to me at all. still rem tat he was playing cards wit his fren tat time. i woke up early in the morn feeling very happy but ntg special act happen awww~~ no point talking bout the past. it seems like i still can’t forget bout him only. i noe i’m act lying to myself, part of it lar. i dun wanna make any1 who loves me n care bout me to worry bout me. i’m in the progress to recover. et juz ask me y i buy a toy which resemble him so much. i do not know y… as i said, i juz fell in love wit it wen i saw it. haha!! but all along i love white soft toys…

err..dad ask me wat’s my class n class teacher’s name. guess he’s suspecting tat i lie d. wed, thurs is really holz marr..mon n tues i declare it myself only marr..coz my teacher’s not around, wat for coming to school. wasting time only…

guess i need to stop here. exam’s starting 2mrw. pa’s the 1st paper, followed by business, having accounts on fri. nxt week have pa n econs. hope i wud fin this exam asap…although i noe i’ll screw this test again, my heart’s not here to study… mayb i’m juz not interested in wat i’m studying. err..no matter wat, i’ll work hard n try my best, i wudn’t want him to look down on me. hse wife worr…never!! n i’ll never b his hse wife now..haha!!

i’ve bought a seal to replace my darling. ask me to forget bout him immediately. i think it’s impossible. but i’ve got over him, the 2nd day after the break up. haha! i’m like announcing to the whole world tat i’m back to single.

there’s a story of buying this seal. me n my mum went to carrefour, the 2nd time. the 1st time we passes by, wanted to go in but decided to eat at sushi king, so we din go shopping. we went to fetch wey from tuition aft tat , there’s another 30min to 4, the time to fetch shum n luek. we decided to shop at carrefour, although we dun have anythg to buy. haha!! we saw this cute lil seal,  a soft toy abandoned at the drinks corner. it was placed at the F&N side. i fell in love wit it immediately. grab it n carry it around…haha!! checked out the price, it cost RM42. me n wey wanted to buy but mum refuse to buy. she said it’s abadoned by ppl, dunno touch by how many ppl d. she said she wud only buy if we get the new unit, we refuse to do so. carried it to the counter, told mum to pay for us n we’ll pay her wen we got home. regret tat we din bring any money out tat time mum tried to persuade me like a small kid, telling me tat we’ll only buy 2mrw. told her i’m not small kid anymore, wun tricked by her. haha!!at lst bought her back, ok i clarified it as a female seal. haha! i really love this seal…

we named it whitey and also called it snow ball. y i called it whitey? i do not know y, mayb coz it reminds me of him and also coz this seal is white.. mum said i’m gonna name it yellowey wen it turn but yellowish. haha!! n soon gonna b browney n blackey…haha!! it wun, i’ll take care of it…it’s very ball-lie…tat’s y we called it snow ball, white as snow and round like a ball. haha!! suits it huh?

finally i’m fine..got over it d. never knew it wud b over so soon. tot i can at least cry for a mth. haha!! anyway, thanx to all my frens larr. and also thanx to the hew family….for letting me know tat it’s indeed a good experience and it’s time to head on…er, forgot there’s 4 of them in the hew family, not sure bout his bro. but need to thank all of them to give me this experience, n bring laughter to my life. although their hse is bit quiet and bit scary, i enjoyed there… can’t step there again, sud realise i miss aunt hew. she’s not too scary act, kinda nice also. miss her also can’t see her d. wish her mother’s day here larrr.. sounds like i’m faking i miss her. watever ppl say lar, i really miss her. tat day really tot of her. =D

now i’m wit my swallen eyes, i’m covering wit my so called batman returns specs now. thinking how am i suppose to tell mum now. er, wanted to tell but i stucked. as usual la. wen i couple wit him also i took so long to tell, now also very hard to tell eh. "how wud it b wen i wanna tell my mum tat i wanan get married huh?? or wen i’m pregnant?? haha!! useless gal!" tot wanna take a photo of aftermath. my camera bully me, no more batt…now charging..hopefully still manage to take this photo of myself. i nv like to take photo at this time, coz i’ll look very ugly. only al can see it now. on my webcam…haha!!

haha!!a break… on the eve of 2006 mother’s day…13.05.2006…

no matter wat, i’m relieved…i do not know y…but tat’s wat i feel. n the main thg tat i concern now is how can i tell my parents. gosh, so close d, like announce to the whole world d. it’ll b so weird if they ask me bout him 1 day.. awww~~

can’t continue anymore.. had cry for 2 hours..the longest cry in my history…i muz admit tat i’m cry baby now

can’t sleep and i woke up to bathe. n i’m on9 now, doing ntg here act. doing somethg very meaningless here act. tat’s y tot of blogging. ntg much to write. hol for so many days, brain also not functioning prop d. made a very harsh decision 2 hours ago. although it has not been decided, i’m starting to regret now. awww~ what shud i do?? unhappy n happy?? will it make any difference or i’ll b happier aft this?? think for a very long time but i’m still undecided… y am i alwiz like this?? me too hope tat i can decide prop…

think i better go up to try sleeping or studying…if i still can’t sleep. it’s more beneficial than sitting down here doing ntg. y didn’t i tot of this?? stupid mun…some1’s disturbing me again..awww~~ really have to go…

colour’s back…cool!! sud the colour cheer me up..haha

i’m not colour blind. yest went to test my eye, i wanna get my new specs done. so i muz go thru the eye test. i told the guy tat i didn’t wanna go for the colour identifying test. they’ll ask u to identify which colour is darker, red or the green one. i alwiz have problem doing tat. the guy suspect i’m colour blind i guess. but ltr he ask me whether i have a driving licence. i said yes. he say it shud b ok if i’ve gona thru the test. hope so… came out then told my mum. now my bro keep teasing me, say wanna bully me playing games wit colours..

i wanna get a punjabi suit…act wanna get a pair of sari. but i’m afraid tat i dunno how to wear them. so i think a punjabi suit will b easier. planned to get them fr masjid india. but i dun think mum will bring me there. it wud have lots of indian there. mum wanna ask her customer to get a pair for me. coz they say it’s much cheaper if we buy from india. we can get 2 suits if we buy from india

compare to the 1 we buy from m’sia. mum asked me to ask my darling to get for me. coz her cust say bangalorehave lots of punjabi suits sold there. errr…i dun really feel nice asking him to get for me. he’s alwiz busy studying. plus, he’ll only b going to bangalorewhen he’s departing back to m’sia. he’s bad at shopping. he dunno my size also. dun really trust his taste also. dunno he noe how to choose or not…kinda hard to ask him buy for me.better forget bout it. find 1 day to buy it myself better. then i can wear it on deepavali..haha!! i have baju kurung from mum d. guess she have cheongsam too. so both i dun need to buy d…

k, gtg…stop here…

juz came back..went to JJ to get my shorts. found tat my pinky shorts are out of stock. not even a single piece left. tried on the other colours but i didn’t like the brown, the white dun have my size too. they went n call the outlets to check for me, found tat leisure mall act still have 25, i cal wear both 24 n 25. i dun mind buying any 2 of this size. rush out of JJ and headed to LM. it’s so jam outside JJ, took a longer route to LM. reach there at bout 9.40, they act close at 9.30. feel bit sorry to keep the salesgal waiting…at lst bought it. i’ve really spend a lot on april, including this few days of May. think i really need to save up some money d. or i wun b able to shop wit p2k at the end of this mth.

went n test my eye juz now. wanna get my new pair of specs. my power act increase. now both eye also 100 d, axis also 25. gosh, increase so much eh…

er, my reminder shows tat it’s my darling’s dad bd 2day. dunno true or not, not to say tat i dun trust my phone. coz i’m the 1 who set it. i guess so, coz it mite b him who told me lst yr. anyway, can’t b wishing him d. can’t b calling him n wish him happy birthday rite? really sounds weird if i do tat.

i dun feel like typing d. wanna stop here. cont again nxt time….

continuation of my previous blog. i think i’ll skip most of it of my sunway trip. juz wanna continue bit of my previous blog. yest bit excited to talk bout everythg but 2day not really in the mood d. i’m very tired. plus not really feeling well.

the slap…wey slapped luek yest. coz we tot luek were lost, we search for him all around. there were having some event, big splash or somethg like tat. then luek were juz curious to see n walk away. when he came back, wey juz slap him. me n my mum were shocked n can’t stop him too. gosh, i juz can’t stop thinking bout tat scene. it was horrible. luek refuse to talk to any1 aft tat. he refuse to take dinner too. all of us ordered but him. at lst we persuaded him to eat. all of us headed home in a lethargic body…slept right aft tat. mum juz complain to me tat luek played comp game till 1 lst nite.think i have to unplug the cable to stop them playing. dunno he have been pratising this for how long d. he’ll b having his UPSR this yr, on sept. kinda worry bout him. if dun get good results den can’t enrol into control sch. think i have to stop here, mum’s worry of wey now…alwiz also can’t post my full version blog…nvm la, ntg much to write. need to study soon…