Fr1skY~FaY

haha!! thanx ya p2… love ya to bits. err..guess prop is settled now. i wud look to the positive of life..at least my frenship r not having prob now. n i guess p2k wun have any prob rite? although i spend much less time wit them now. my holz is coming, try to spend time wit u guys la k?? u noe, we dun study 2getha anymore, kinda hard to spend so much time 2getha like lst time too. although we stay near to each other, but pig is away from home. pau’s busy wit her work too. me too have my own work n task to handle. i’m alwiz trying my best to spend time wit u guys 1 lar. look at my planning book, kinda full too. i dun even have time to study. guess i’m gonna screw my monthly test again. if dun do well in stpm. i’m surely not gonna get into local u. dun get a place in local u means my future is gone. gonna step out to the working pace lor, guess tat’s my only choice tat time. dun expect my dad to pay for my studies. dun wanan talk bout it larrr…

got band 4 for my muet. have i ever mention it here? act juz lack of 3 marks to band 5, wat a waste. i screwed up in my listening. the rest of it i did fairly well. only listening i did badly. awww~~ now gotta retake lor. if i’m intending to take other course, i wudn’t wanna waste money n time to retake. many of them ask me not to retake. they keep telling me tat the oct paper will b harder than the mid yr 1. only teacher’s encouraging me, mum also la, coz she’s confident wit me. thanx mum…

err..guess i wanan stop here lar, need to go down to drink "pat chen". it’s a kind of herb lar…mayb girls wud noe..haha!!

downloaded the latest version of MSN messenger, Windows Live Messenger lst nite. can’t use till this afternoon, but it’s not working well. none of my contacts are appeared. dunno what’s wrong, got so fed up. tried to add in some contacts but end up all r offline, wen they’re all on9. gosh, wat’s wrong wit it?? or it juz dun work like wat i tot?? any1 plz tell me bout it….

er…argued wit AL, Deb and SL 2day. lots of thgs happen recently. we were all busy wit the consumer week programme. lots of thgs to plan n handle, end up arguing. felt so sad arguing wit them. Lst fri i shouted at AL, due to the quiz thg. Mayb I was juz too frustrated tat time, tat’s y can’t stand it n shouted at her. she ended up crying. Ltr she came in n said sorry to me, i was ok. Offered her some nuggets too, i ordered tat for her act, knowing tat she haven’t take anythg for her lunch although it’s bout 3. tat was ok d lu…wat had happen on mon also i didn’t really put in my heart, forget bout everythg d. 2day, somethg happen too, although it’s juz a small prob la. told bc bout it coz norm i wud like to voice out, tell out d then ma ntg lorrr… but this bc sud tell them, said somethg loudly. so they ask me out to talk. ended up crying…

they keep telling me tat i’m avoiding prob?? am i?? i really wanna talk to some1, not any of them n not p2k too. haven’t find any1 who’s suitable, at 1st tot bc can act share my prob wit me, since i sit beside him n he’s kinda close to me. but now…haih~ who shud i talk to?? i felt tat i have no1 to talk to wen i have any frens prob since i lost him. sud realise he’s so imp to my life. but now, can’t do anythg d. he’s not my bf anymore, can’t b calling him to talk bout this rite?? wat will he think den??

2day talked to bc bout my future n studies. my tears flow eh. i’m kinda surprise tat i cried. nv tot i’m still so sensitive to tat topic..

aww~~ another scratch on my car.. my probation period’s gonna b over soon, bout a mth ltr..then i wun need tat large P stick on the car tat i drive d. Bro juz got his licence, i wun b able to take it off on mum’s car too, coz he wud use tat car very often, juz like me. back to the story, send shum to swimming juz now, i dunno y wey followed me out, was very surprise wen he hop into my car too. nearly hit a bicycle wen i was going out tat junction… dunno whether i’m dreaming or wat la, juz didn’t really see tat bike. tat rider stop by my car n show me some sign language asking me y i didn’t see wen i take my turn out. gosh, i’m really sorry, really didn’t mean it. i really din see tat bike, nearly took his life. think i can’t say anythg else now. it’s my fault.

on my way home, wanna park my car into my parking space. hit on the door n wall instead. gosh, i rarely make this kind of mistake. been driving n parking into my lovely parking lot for bout 2 yrs d. it’s kinda impossible for me to hit tat gate, my estimation is quite well now, for my hse i mean. sud felt tat bad thgs gonna happen to me soon, juz now b4 i went out also acc close the gate, acc pressed tat autogate button. it juz hit right thru my car. i dunno y i didn’t take the initiative to reverse but i stayed there instead. like an stupid idiot looking at the gate hitting my car. luckily i didn’t simply reverse too, if hit my dad’s lovely c5 den i’m surely gonna get it. tat car damn nice n exp eh. although now not so d larr.. awww~~ wat’s wrong wit me… pls dun let anythg bad happen to me..

wat a funny day. my ex called, er…shud specify which ex now. cc called, from australia, wen i’m on my way home, driving. he wished me happy birthday, on the 34th day after my bd. haha!! wat a funny person he is. he forgot my bd, so sad~~

pm my the other ex juz now, hew i mean. wanna find out wen he’s coming back, wanna remind him to bring back my cd. tat cd was given by my ex, contain a video, a very touching n nice video. was ltr borrowed to hew but he refuse to return to me since then. became his gf d den he wanna keep it, jealous gua. but now, we’ve broke up, can give me back d gua. to b honest, cd was an excuse, although i really wanna get it back. but the main reason is i still misses him, wanna talk to him. he’s right, somethg’s bothering me. i have lots to ask, lots to find out…lots tat i wanna talk bout. but come n think bout it, wat’s the purpose if i ask? wat will i get if i found out the truth?? i might b sad again…might b hurt again… so y shud i find out, wen i’m not fully recovered. he told me tat i can tell him if i have any prob, but how on earth tat i’m gonna tell some1 tat broke my heart into pieces bout how much i misses him. it shows tat i’m so weak eh. i really hate doing tat. awww~~ revealed too much bout myself d. i’m very tired, wanna sleep earlier 2nite…

long time din post blog… AL made me wanna post somethg in my blog.how have juz went off to kedah. AL misses him a lot now. she started to felt tat ldr is really diff, although hers is not too far.. haha!! then i started to tease her tat i used to b like tat wen Hew’s leaving to India. She alwiz tell me tat it’s alright, dun need to b sad, he’ll b coming back, not tat he’s leaving me. haha!! but now he really leaves me d.. haha, ntg to b sad about d la, it’s all over. i starting not to noe him now, he seems so diff, totally a stranger to me… is he like tat wen i noe him or he’s changed?? argh!! i do not wish to noe, ntg bout him. *although i noe i still care, haha!!

to p2k, both P i mean…

i’m so sorry for neglecting both of u all these while. long time din spend time wit both of u d. i really dun mean it ler, but i’m really busy. alwiz having tuitions. aft class also very very tired d. er… now exam coming d ma, really need to study d. i really dun wish to fail my test… to my lovely pau, did u mean the aircon compressor tat hit ur car this morn?? i was having class wen i recieve ur msg, didn’t think much. ltr only tot it’s the aircond compressor… luckily ur car dun have heavy damage…